All The Noise In My Head...

All the weight that I feel, 
on my shoulders lying, 
the fear in my chest, 
the noise in my head... 
And all the lies
don't really help. 

Try to turn off
from the world
and the neighbour. 
Alone, try to process,
what all that even means. 

Will it work, 
will it be better, 
will everything be all right?
Like before?
Never. 
Is the damage too big?

All the weight that I feel, 
on my shoulders lying...
Will it go away 
or just stay there for good?

[A.M., 21.03.2020]